Song Addicted...

Aku pun tak tau kenapa sejak kebelakangan ni aku addicted sangat dengan lagu Back To The Moment

2010's Regret...

I have to admit that I have made a stupid decision in 2010 for selling my photography gear...camera, lens, flash, lighting system...sighhh. It's my passion though, but I have to do it because I really need money to do something more important.

I just want to share some of my best capture... ;)
Click here if you want to see more collection

Clearing My Music

Ok...malam ni mood aku tengah membuak2 nak buat clearing for my iTunes and iPod's playlist. Ada 1249 lagu dalam list aku...dan aku rasa suku daripada jumlah tu aku tak dengar pun. Pijau dah mata aku pilih lagu mana nak buang nih...I wish I can just move the cursor with my eyes and not by my hand handling mouse....

No Title...*peduli la,blog aku!!!

Hurm...it's been a while tak update blog,dah bersawang dah...hehehehe. Well, seriously aku memang busy sgt. Hujung-hujung tahun la katakan...banyak show...aku kan jantan kaberet....hahaha.

Ok, story benda yang best dulu.....I've been teaching Institut Kesihatan Umum for their dance competittion between their institute...and we won!!!! Alhamdulillah....aku tak sangka pulak menang sebab masa diorang perform macam takde orang sorak je tau2 jd champion plak. Last time pun masa aku contribute untuk Kolej KPJ Nilai pun menang jugak...hehehe...(yang ni aku just contribute idea and beberapa moves...the credit must go to Ms. Sha sebab dia byk bertungkus-lumus doing all the choreography).

Ape lagi ek..hurmm, my engagement on 20th November lepas :) Hope everything goes well....and I'm not the rebound guy anymore...hahaha. Then, I got an interview for one of the Malaysia finest power producer company. Already got the through for the 2nd interview. Hopefully kalau rezeki dapat la aku kerja kat situ.

What else...owh, almost forgot one thing. I got a call from somebody. It;s an invitation to be one of the honorable judge for a dance festival...cool eyh!?...hehehe.

The Bad news is (not so bad la), hurmm...let me think....takde kot...semuanya macam berjalan lancar je. Alhamdulillah :)

No Title...*peduli la,blog aku!!!

Yes...I'm The Soundtrack Freak!!!!!

After hour and hour and hour waiting, finally I've manage to download the greatest soundtrack of all time. The Last Samurai OST, The Gladiator OST and The Last Of The Mohicans OST. It was the greatest music score I've ever heard.





Aku kalau tengok cerita2 cinta mmg aku takkan menangis. Tp aku akan menangis bila tengok cerita2 macam Kingdom Of Heavens, The Gladiator, The Last Of The Mohicans...dan cerita2 yang seangkatan dgnnya. Pendek kata cerita2 epik la. Mmg menjadi kegilaan aku tengok cerita2 mcm ni....aku puas.

Why Now!!!????...Do I Care!!??...I Don't think So...

"Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir Batin.. now.. its time for me to let u go.... its hurt when heard u want to get in a serious relationship.... teingat dl2 pasal kita plan everthg.. harrghh....tanak lg kontek2 dgn d... really........ bye.... really mish the moment with u.... jaga gf d baek2 taw... tanak mcm dl lg.. bye.... salam............."

Why?...why now?...have you ever know that I'm lost when you left me alone? I don't know what to do in my life....yes, love hurt!!! You said to me that you won't regret with your decision. It's easy for you...just in a week you have found a new guy in your life. I still remember what that guy said to me..."Sudahla, dia xmau kau lagi. Tak payah la cari-cari dia. Dia dengan aku sekarang. Jangan kau amik tau lagi hal dia!"

What about me? I need 7 month to create and to find a new life...a new serious relationship. You know how hurt is that? I don't think so. I have to go through a lot of bullshit thingy. I'm happy now, why suddenly you send me a text like you need me?

Kau tau tak maksud perkataan "SEKSA". Macam-macam aku hadapi lepas kau buang aku macam sampah. Semua yang pernah aku ada aku tingalkan sebab aku nak mula hidup yang baru. Aku mula balik dari bawah....FROM NOTHING!!!...Kau hidup senang, ada kerja baru yang glamer...ke hulu ke hilir pakai kereta...boyfriend pun kerja night club....ramai kawan yang hebat2...PERNAH KAU INGAT PENGORBANAN AKU SELAMA 4 TAHUN KITA HIDUP SAMA2??...

Ye...alhamdulillah, aku bangga dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang. Aku bahagia. Aku berjaya capai apa yang aku nak dalam hidup aku (kecuali sambung belajar sbb xsempat lg)...rezeki aku bertambah. Aku tak pernah lupakan tanggungjawab aku kat kau selama kita berpisah. I need to stop doing all this because I suddenly realized it's really worthless. Kau susah..aku tolong. Kau perlukan itu ini...aku tolong. Aku tak kisah sebab aku tau macamana hidup susah. Aku ingat kau akan hidup senang bila tinggalkan aku lepas tu berkawan dengan boyfriend baru kau. Jangkaan aku silap. Sorry, aku takde maksud nak marah2 pagi 1 syawal ni...aku cuma geram!!!!!!

Look Ahead...No Turning Back!!!

"Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir Batin.. now.. its time for me to let u go.... its hurt when heard u want to get in a serius relationship.... teingat dl2 pasal kita plan everthg.. harrghh....tanak lg kontek2 dgn d... really........ bye.... really mish the moment with u.... jaga gf d baek2 taw... tanak mcm dl lg.. bye.... salam............."

Why...why...have you ever know that I

From China With Love...

Ok...Blogspot, Twitter and Facebook are banned in China. How do I get through this and open my account...don't ask...hehehehe

The journey from Kuala Lumpur to Tianjin Airport China is about 6 1/2 hours. Then I have to take a cab to get to the bus station (the toilet are STINK..bobby trap everywhere!!)...lepas tu naik bas menuju ke Sheraton Hotel, Tianjin...another 4 hours journey...sakit pinggang beb!!!!

Berkat kesabaran....lepas je check-in...aku terus naik bilik...and WOW...the room is like heaven....thank god!!!!!...

The arrival...!!!

The carpet in a cab....crack up up my day!!

My 1st webcam with my sayang!!!!..


But I do miss my beloved country...seriously...I LOVE YOU MALAYSIA!!!!

MOTIF!!???

Ya Allah...berikan aku kekuatan!!!!

Post aku kali ni memang luahan perasaan aku yang aku rasa aku tak boleh tampung lagi tahap kesedihannya. Susah sangat ke aku nak dapat apa yang aku nak? Payah sangat ke aku nak capai apa yang aku impikan?

Baru-baru ni aku banyak dengar cerita orang pasal diri aku? Adakah aku ni cukup famous untuk orang bergosip? Memang pada mulanya aku rasa nak gelak bila dengar orang bercerita tentang aku....tapi bila duduk sorang-sorang macam ni aku kembali berfikir...kenapa orang perlu bercerita tentang aku? Kenal ke aku dengan diorg? Diorang kenal ke aku ni siapa? Aku jamin..kalau aku tanya nama betul aku kat diorang pun diorang tak tau nama penuh aku sape...

Cerita yang aku tak boleh terima....aku 'mandrem' tunang orang dengan perfume. Motif?...Aku tak layan pun pompuan tu...dia yang cari aku...Knp? Malu ke bila aku tak layan kau...kau cakap aku 'mandrem ' kau? *Mode : Marah. Jahil sangat ke aku sampai nak buat macam tu? Yes...I admit...ramai perempuan yang selesa bercakap dengan aku. I'm a soft-talker. So what!?...Aku ada menggatal ke?

Ada pulak yang cakap aku ni kaki perempuan. Ok...sebutkan nama-nama perempuan yang pernah aku mainkan. SEBUTLA SEKARANG!!!!!....*Mode : Marah

Bila aku dah mula nak kenal someone yang aku rasa aku nak buat jadi pasangan hidup aku...lagi macam2 cerita yang aku tak tahu menahu timbul. FCUK!!! Pun diorang kata aku mandrem jugak...Giler ape!!!??? Dia single...aku single....so?...salah ke aku berkawan dengan dia? Salah ke aku merancang perjalanan hidup aku dengan dia? Kenapa ada pulak yang bengang dengan aku? Korang jeles ke aku berkawan dengan pelakon? (ye...dia memang pelakon) Cubala doa2kan kebahagian daripada mengaibkan orang lain...kawan2 pulak tu yang buat hal.

Did you ever realized that u guys pun bukannya baik sangat!!!!!!

Aku takde sesiapa untuk aku berkongsi masalah. Aku post kat blog ni pun sebab nak redakan kemarahan dan kesedihan aku. Takde sape yang nak baca blog aku ni pun.

Nota Kecik - Peduli Apa Aku!!!

I have the right to choose which is which. I know that I'm a lil' bit selfish....but it's my life. I have to pick and choose what's the best for me. Aku bukan tak fikirkan keadaan sekeliling aku bila buat apa-apa keputusan. Bila aku dalam keadaan yang kusut...keadaan sekeliling aku tak membantu pun....SO..ADA MAK KESAH APA ORANG NAK CKP!!!...sekian terima kasih :)

Welcome To BB's World...

As we know...I'm a gadget freak. The latest thingy in my bag is BlackBerry Storm...I have to trade-in my beloved N71 to get this crap...hahahaha. The best thing about BlackBerry is....aku bole connect dgn kawan2 aku dengan senang. Any discussion...or any audition held...I'll get the latest update. wink*wink* Thats's the reason aku pakai BlackBerry :)

The bad thing is...it's always keep ringing. Sampai aku kadang2 tak cukup tido. Asyik berbunyi je dengan Facebook, Twitter & BBM punya notification.

*The other story -
I already find someone...she's the one yang aku rasa lain dari yang lain....we'll just wait and see....I'm going with the flow.....plus, she's an actress....aiiyooo!!!!

Again...Again & Again...

Hurm...masuk tahun ni dah tahun ke-4 aku tak beraya dengan family aku...

2007 - tahun ni aku kena kerja kat Genting, ada show aku kena handle

2008 - aku duduk rumah sorg2 layan DVD Micheal Jackson. Family aku balik Melaka

2009 - aku terbang seberang laut ke Sandakan. Raya dengan x-gf aku

2010 - ni paling mencabar, aku kena pegi China 2 bulan...

The End Of Cuci The Musical 2

At last...9th August 2010...it's a wrap for my latest journey, Cuci The Musical 2. It was a wonderful journey. To all my family from Cuci The Musical, it's really nice to have a chance working with you guys. Here some picture I want to share...CUCI JANGAN TAK CUCI!!!!











But still....my journey with Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical is the most memorable path in my life. A lot of tears...a lot of happiness...a lot of passion...it's not only doing the show, it was the real journey in my life...

The Cuci's Freak..

Cuci The Musical is on stage again for the 2nd season. Aku tak terlibat dalam pementasan pertama dulu. Untuk staging kali ni aku akan terlibat dengan geng2 jahat...wahhhh...am I that bad?..hahaha. So, akan ada scene which is I will hanging on air with safety rope and doing abseiling.

See you guys at Istana Budaya from 27th July until 9th August 2010....watch all the excitement in Cuci The Musical....This is the funniest staging ever...

Like 'N' Love

Got text from Miss J (baru je kenal tak sampai sebulan plak tu):

"Fazz, be my boyfriend nak x? I LIKE you. You don't have to dance. Live with me plsss. I love the way you treat me. Kalau u xnk tinggal dgn I, u duduk je kat area2 Damansara ni, dekat dgn I. U pakai kete I...I pakai my mom punya cooper. Senang U nk jmpe I. I'll ask papa about vacancy kat ofis dia. Aritu msa I g dinner dgn papa, dia ada tnya psal u"

NI JAWAPAN AKU...SEBIJIK DALAM TEXT YANG AKU REPLY:

"J...sori,i xble nak ada apa2 relationship skg. I xnk ada apa2 skg...it's not the right time. I know ur family suka I...but we've only known each other tak sampai sebulan kot...so dun expect too much from me. One more thing, dance is my life..I xble nk quit from dancing. Thx coz offer me ur car n ur house..I xble nk trima semua 2..it's not good. Keep it for urself ok. We are still friend...if dalam 6-7 month baru kita bole ckp pasal relationship but not for now. I hope u understand"


Well...ni namanya tolak rezeki. Tapi aku rasa puas sebab aku jadi diri aku. When I dance...I want people to question the reality of what they're seeing....And yes, I'm not getting rich with dancing..but I really live my life...

Can I Cry!!???

Another text I got from HER...

"Fazli, whatever it is be strong. Jangan terlampau pikir n jangan terlampau work hard sampai memudaratkan diri. I tak boleh nak buat ape but I still concern about you though as a friend. I know it's hard for you to move on and I tak paksa you to do it as soon as possible. Everyone has their own way tackling this matter. You've choose yours cuma whether it is right or wrong. Apa2 pun jadi ada hikmah. And I believe that. Take care sweetie and you are always in my prayers. Good night..."

Soul-Mate

Let's talk about soul-mate (bahasa melayu dia ala2 macam teman sejiwa)...sepanjang aku hidup dari Ogos 1982 sampai la ke bulan Julai 2010 aku rasa aku bertuah sebab di temukan dengan 2 orang soul-mate aku...sebab aku rasa tak semua orang pernah berkesempatan kenal kot dengan teman sejiwa diorang. Kuasa tuhan siapa yang tau kan :)

And the the special thing is...aku bertemu dan kenal dengan diorang dalam tahun ini. I'm very lucky kan... :)

The 1st one is...Ms. S(bukan nama sebenar). Yes, we fall in love to each other but you know..jodoh semua kat tangan tuhan kan. I still miss her (I know she miss me too) and never stop remember her in my whole life.

The 2nd one is Miss Arl_na M_n__r (tak boleh sebut nama nanti kontroversi). She's the one yang aku rasa bole cope dalam segala hal dengan aku. Love story, hobby, family problem, life problem dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Mula-mula kenal memang aku rasa macam jatuh hati...but bila fikir-fikir balik it's just a crush. Tapi sekarang bila dengan dia...aku tak rasa pun perasaan yang berkaitan dengan cinta. Aku cuma rasa perasaan tanggungjawab sebagai seorang kawan dengan dia. Akan tetapi, ada pulak manusia yang membuat kontroversi antara aku dengan dia...WHAT THE FISH!!??..Dah kenapa dengan hidup you all? Bingit la kepala aku macam ni. The simple thing can be the most complicated thing ever...

The 3rd one...yang ni additional 18/8/2010...on my bithday. Insyallah kalau takde aral melintang aku akan bina hidup dengan dia....doa2kan yang terbaik je la. She is the one yang aku cari2 selama ni.

Tapi soal hidup mati dan jodoh kan kat tangan PENCIPTA kita....I'm just going with the flow...kalau dah jodoh terima tapi kalau dah bodoh nak buat macamana kan.

Finally...

Introducing to you.....jeng jeng jeng.....Nana



*hey...It,s my name on her back...hahaha..just playing around with pencil...


It's been since forever kot aku cari dance partner yang betul2 ada chemistry dengan aku. Before this I got a partner, she's good but kes2 gaduh dengan boyfriend tak suka menari la...what the fish!!!

This one..who i called Nana is even better than her...with a lot of passion...I can see it through her eyes, when she dance with me she's got some soul on the movement...I JUST LOVE THAT FEELS!!!!..We have the same interest in terms of choreography...songs...etc... ^_^