Thursday, September 9, 2010

Why Now!!!????...Do I Care!!??...I Don't think So...

"Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir Batin.. now.. its time for me to let u go.... its hurt when heard u want to get in a serious relationship.... teingat dl2 pasal kita plan everthg.. harrghh....tanak lg kontek2 dgn d... really........ bye.... really mish the moment with u.... jaga gf d baek2 taw... tanak mcm dl lg.. bye.... salam............."

Why?...why now?...have you ever know that I'm lost when you left me alone? I don't know what to do in my life....yes, love hurt!!! You said to me that you won't regret with your decision. It's easy for you...just in a week you have found a new guy in your life. I still remember what that guy said to me..."Sudahla, dia xmau kau lagi. Tak payah la cari-cari dia. Dia dengan aku sekarang. Jangan kau amik tau lagi hal dia!"

What about me? I need 7 month to create and to find a new life...a new serious relationship. You know how hurt is that? I don't think so. I have to go through a lot of bullshit thingy. I'm happy now, why suddenly you send me a text like you need me?

Kau tau tak maksud perkataan "SEKSA". Macam-macam aku hadapi lepas kau buang aku macam sampah. Semua yang pernah aku ada aku tingalkan sebab aku nak mula hidup yang baru. Aku mula balik dari bawah....FROM NOTHING!!!...Kau hidup senang, ada kerja baru yang glamer...ke hulu ke hilir pakai kereta...boyfriend pun kerja night club....ramai kawan yang hebat2...PERNAH KAU INGAT PENGORBANAN AKU SELAMA 4 TAHUN KITA HIDUP SAMA2??...

Ye...alhamdulillah, aku bangga dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang. Aku bahagia. Aku berjaya capai apa yang aku nak dalam hidup aku (kecuali sambung belajar sbb xsempat lg)...rezeki aku bertambah. Aku tak pernah lupakan tanggungjawab aku kat kau selama kita berpisah. I need to stop doing all this because I suddenly realized it's really worthless. Kau susah..aku tolong. Kau perlukan itu ini...aku tolong. Aku tak kisah sebab aku tau macamana hidup susah. Aku ingat kau akan hidup senang bila tinggalkan aku lepas tu berkawan dengan boyfriend baru kau. Jangkaan aku silap. Sorry, aku takde maksud nak marah2 pagi 1 syawal ni...aku cuma geram!!!!!!

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